It meant the world to me to be able to say goodbye to Roxy in her home-our home. As it was, we said goodbye out in the backyard under an arch which made it seem almost like a Church funeral-we even had music. After all I was saying goodbye to my sweet and loving partner. I'll never forget what a young man said to me when Roxy was a puppy "Your dog is looking into my soul." And she could and she did. Amen!
Dear Roxy, my sweetie pie, I love you so very much it seems you are still alive as I think of you so very often each day and night. I hope you are enjoying Doggy Heaven with your sister Liffey, playing catch and taking hikes. My walks aren’t the same without you sniffing all the trees. Aunt Stacey and I will never forget the time you jumped about 4 feet off the floor, turned your head to the side and with your mouth open you tried to reach a piece of pizza in a box on the counter. We couldn’t stop laughing!
Dealing with Roxy's death has been very difficult but it comes in waves of pain and tears at any mention of her or thought out of the blue and any time of the day or night. Otherwise I’m doing ok and have gotten back to my life. One of the most difficult things to deal with are her ashes. Sometimes I get angry when I hold the box and crying I say “How could they reduce you to these ashes”. That is the most painful of all my thoughts but there was no other choice and I don’t want them scattered. I have to keep her whole. So that’s how it’s going for me. I also have to learn how to adapt to living alone as I never had to except for the 3 months between my husband’s death and getting Roxy. She’s been through so much with me over the 16 years we’ve been together. We were so emotionally tied.
I miss three things the most; your wet nose on my ankle which was your kiss and the speed with which you ran through the yard when you sensed an animal at the gate. You were so protective of me. Most of all I’ll never forget our nightly ritual. I’d hold that sweet face in my hands, tickle your tulip ears with my fingers and then give you three kisses on the top of your head. Bedtime is not the same without you and never will be. I just know in my heart and soul that I’ll be with you one day in paradise. You are an unforgettable, precious and tender-hearted dog who is as human, warm and loving as they get. Thanks for the memories!
Love,
Mom